Dreaming Reality

Thoughts and emotions

kshri — Tue, 11 Aug 2009 02:26:00 +0000

Just woke up after another tiring day. Thoughts are swirling in my head. I wish for one minute of peace from these thoughts that keep chasing me night and day. Thoughts filled with emotions – heavy, light, positive and negative. Life passes away dealing with these emotions.

There are some people I talk to or think of. Thoughts of them fill me with a strange happiness. Almost like when they are around the world seems all in order.

Then there are these some others who evoke deep negativity. I feel jealous, I feel unhappy, disturbed, angry….

And of course there are these others that just waltz across my mind with absolutely no response from my emotions. The lot I would like to call my passive friends.

I am sitting and wondering why I react so strongly to some people? Is it past experiences with them? Do I like some people because they treated me well? Respected me? Loved me? Do I not like some people because they are jealous of me? Rude to me?

Some of the people are just acquaintances. People I have just been introduced to. And my judgements become these emotions that torment my every living moment.

In the end I am only wondering if there is a way to be neutral to everyone so I can have a balanced emotional response.

Rambled

kshri — Sat, 08 Aug 2009 03:17:02 +0000

Many thoughts are running through my head. Most of these thoughts have already been written about somewhere. There is nothing novel about anything.

Writing something about life and its great random acts would be like churning a novel day in and day out. I was wondering the other night. How do people get connected? How is a relationship formed? Where does the comfort to start a relationship arise from? Why do I hate some people when I see them? Why do I want to make a person my friend for ever? Is it because I am selfish? Because I think if I am his/her friend I can get a,b,c,d..benefits? Or is it because it is just familiarity?

into the past…

kshri — Thu, 06 Aug 2009 18:58:32 +0000

I met some people from my past today. People who were an important piece of life very long ago. Now they seem lost in that memory.

I know they hold the key to many pieces of me. I also know that they don’t know they hold it. So we start a conversation. And slowly stories are told. Personalities emerge. Thoughts get connected. Slowly silence. A random quiteness prevails.

I come back home with my mind filled with questions and answers. The puzzle is to match them. As I think- I now understand why I made some decisions in life.

What did I think?

1 Conversation with people from your past can be very revealing.

2 Some questions never have answers

Religion-unexplained

kshri — Sun, 03 May 2009 11:36:53 +0000

The emptiness of religion when it is a question of faith hits me in the temple premises. A sense of doubt fills me.

After all, isn’t religion only a sense of belonging-a human clan feeling?

What really makes you believe in a religion? What is true faith?

Is only faith on faith itself a religion?

Questions fast fill me, for which I have no answers

The Full Stop

kshri — Sun, 03 May 2009 11:25:30 +0000

Life left in you

Laughter left in you

Sadness left in you

Experience left in you

Love left in you

Sorrow left in you

Breath left in you

Words left in you

Anger left in you

Beauty left in you

Wisdom left in you

Pain left in you

Dreams left in you

Fantasies left in you

Ambitions left in you

Grudges left in you

Divinity left in you

Grace left in you

And Death takes it all away.